You could have made a difference, or been more successful, or told your people you loved them. There's so much you can do with that white thread once you've got a proper hold of it. Do whatever you want with it. Use it. So that someday when there isn't much of it left, you won't have any regrets that you didn't do anything with the thread that�s gone and there isn't much left to do anything with.

I'm trying to do that. But it's on a smaller scale at the moment. I'm trying to spend everyday mugging so that when exams come I won't regret anything. If I do badly, that's the best I could have done.

I think I need a hug. From a special person. I just don't know who that person is. Not yet. Wish I did.

I wouldn't mind some kimchi while I'm looking, though.

written at 10:39 p.m.