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| 2004-11-20 : After "O"s
So now what? I�m supposed to be happy, and jump around singing, and hugging people in the street? It�s been a bad year overall, and that includes the rest of it. Just an extension of last year. This year sort of shattered last year and then cleaned up nicely, leaving a nice blank slate. But under the surface� I don�t know. It�s just rotting and empty. One thing I learned these two years: Don�t be kind-hearted. Is all this sounding rather depressing? I can�t help it. Finally I can let out some of what I�ve been holding in. You know how much f*cking discipline it took to just shove it deep down inside and study? No you don�t. Nobody does.******** Actually, this year wasn�t so bad. See, when I cleared my wallet, I found about 10- odd movie tickets? And that�s definitely more than I went out last year. And this year I still have good memories! So perhaps you�ll just ignore the stuff above the asterisks. Or maybe not. Don�t ignore it. Well, you won�t see me around for a week from Sunday. I have to leave for school at 0845. It�s graduation. The whole wear-your-tie-and-walk-across-the-stage-and-shake-the-principal�s-hand thing. And after that grin geekily at the audience and stumble off the stage. I shall bring a camera. I want to go to VJ. Science. But how to, with 12points-4?I Hate My Life. written at 7:35 a.m. previousnext - - 2012-04-23 - - 2012-04-20 - - 2012-02-28 Wistful - 2012-01-22 - - 2012-01-20 |