Neither of which I will be getting any time soon, and neither of which is a long term solution. I want my long term solution. I've been waiting for so long.

I am unable to accurately represent here the cyclical frustration I feel, and which continually wells up from deep within me. Until the source is stemmed, i'm stuck bailing water. And I can't do what I need to get rid of the frustration either. Lack of funding.

So I'll continue with my life, wading around ankle deep in water that keeps coming, whence it comes I know not.

At least I can swim, I guess.

I'm becoming a weird person.

written at 10:16 p.m.