OK, so now you’re going ‘uhhh’ and thinking ‘what does this have to do with today’s entry?’

The truth? Almost nothing.

Hahaha.

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Hmm, what Kiw said today in class about us marrying early but not having a significant other now is sorta contradictory, isn’t it? Yes, it is.

But before I embark on this entry about the controversial, thorny topic of love, let me make clear that this is just another of my entries. People reading this, don’t be pissed or anything or feel guilty. Just read.

I don’t know. I sometimes think that indeed, we’re too young to have bfs or gfs. Each year, when I look back at the previous year, I see how immature I was and how mature I am compared to the previous year. But the next year this scene repeats itself, so I can’t be very mature. The same concept applies here.

I think many people think they can handle it, that they won’t get drawn into it. The truth is, it’s not that easy. Sure, anyone can say ‘oh I’m not going to spend too much time on the phone with *ahem*. Just half an hour, then I’m going to mug for the bio test tomorrow.’ But half an hour turns into 1 hour, and you’re still going ‘5 more mins…’

Haha. As an outsider, looking in, it’s really comical. But for those inside, caught in a gilded cage, it looks great, but you’re really being imprisoned.

Sure, some people can have a significant other and STILL maintain good results and everything. But love is passionate, wild and irrational. It’s also blind. So more often than not, these people are more in the veryveryvery good friends category. That’s not to say there’re none who can. It’s just that there aren’t many of them. I think I know one or two, but for the rest…

Haha. Although sometimes I think it’d be so nice to have a really really zhi1 xin1 you3… Maybe somewhere on the threshold of being a couple, but only on the line, not crossing it into the point where we’re a couple…

But I digress. Sometimes, I see those sec sch couples on the bus, all lovey-dovey, with exploring hands and all… I don’t know. I think theirs is more of puppy love. Something like, ‘oh, let’s try it. This should be fun… ‘ Most of the time, it is, but at the same time, it’s rarely true love. They’ll split up after a while, or they’re just really good friends with an element of hanky-panky… Puppy love…

Well. Actually I should stop here. I have a bio test tmr, and although I’ve already finished studying, I still need to look through one more time…

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If I’m looking for a significant other, this is a really really bad year. Well. I shall see what happens.

Ahhh.

Haha and I want to go out more! Maybe once every fortnight? Haha. But go with who? Sigh. What an excellent way to de-stress…

written at 5:21 p.m.